-changing method-

starting from today i'll update this blog once every fortnight..

yelaaa...

klu update tiap2 minggu nnt muak plak org nk baca..haha...

biar kumpul cte best2 pnye bru laa org nk baca..hehe...

telalu bnyk utk diceritakan...

hang outs, mmbr dtg menumpang tido kt umah, beraya satu umah je...

hahahahhaa.....

we start from last week's story..

sepanjang cuti dunia aku hanylah bilik sendiri dan bilik mandi..hahaha...

malas gile2 nk jalan pg beraya...

but i have some specific dates that will i never forget..huhu...

on 14.9.10...

hang out with my buddies..

afiq-t and syaforce sora...

we started to hang out at 2o'clock in the morning..

haha..*gle awal*

pg lepak mamak...*bersyisya bubble laa kami*

it was like heaven...

i was very happy with them..*souunds gay**pffft*

bnyk cte yg dikongsikan...

dh mcm pillow talk dh...

hahaha...

but every single thing is a secret between us....

sorry folks...

in the morning plak pg bantai roti tampal kt bachang....

gle best!!!

nasi lemak 70 sen ade lg...

pergghhhh!!!~

in the afternoon ktorg pg karaoke smpi lebam...haha....

then snap some pictures during sunset....

*apsal laa cte aku ni mcm dull je??*

*gile boring time aku baca blik*

haaa...

b4 that...

i met two persons that i really wanted to meet in my life before this..

it was mr hakim ishak and miss puteri...

hakim looks like taufik batisah...hahaha..*die yg perasan* :p

n puteri is really cute to look at...

*m i in love again??**syoh3**menghalau perasaan* >.<

after that i went to break my fast with my friends at seoul garden restaurant...

*aku melantak bnyk gile*

i'm really satisfied on that day...

huhu...

the next day..

15.9.10

kluar hang out ngan puteri..

i thought she was alone..

ade org teman plak..*bru nk romantik sket*

hahaha...gurau saja...

i made a new friend on that day...

a guy named Naz...

puteri's besties...*he's not a gay ok*

n i had a really bad sore throat on that day...

*karaoke lg ngan diorg plak**dh laa puasa 6 lg**mmg lebam kaw2 laa tkak aku*

in the same time....

ade plak mmbr2 time asasi lepak bersama...

so, after i hang out with puteri..

i went to them..huhu..

it have been ages since our last hang out...

*ttbe rindu plak zaman uitm dlu*

i asked them to bump to my house for awhile..

eventually they don't...

x pe...ujong mggu ni ade open house...

if they're not attending mmg siap laaa....

hahaha....

n on that day is terrific too..~

16.9.10..~

selamat hari malaysia!!!

i didn't go anywhere...

sitting inside the room n hibernating...

(-.-)zzzZZZzzz

mlm pg amek adib...

then hang out with syaforce  n afiq...

on that night we laughed out loud...

hahahaha....

adib buat lawak kaw2 pnya...

siap mmbr aku lg 2 org x tahan nk saket prot gelak..

hahahha...

ktorg bantai teh disco fir the first time...

*interesting*

hehehehe...

:D

balik tdo jap...

17.9.10..

hanya pg beraya ke rumah shahrul muhazzad....

dpt duet raya bro...

hahaha....

ktorg dtg mengejutkan shahrul ketika matahari sudah memacak di atas kepala...

*apsal masuk sastera melayu sket ni??*

ptg anta adib pg melaka central...

on that night.......

*jengjengjeng*

ade umah terbuka polis melaka...

hahaha...

i went around the stalls there n have a taste on every stall's cooking...

yg plg spesel is Kambing Bakar!!!*with blackpepper n mint sauce*

too many hot chicks on that night...

rambang mata laa seyh tgk sume anak dara pki kebaya...

*aku plak kan bru je single....*hehehehe......

dok usha dri awal majlis smpi abes....

hahaha....

tp sempat laa dpt no sorg awek ni.....

hehehehe....*member lame daaa*

nevermind...

as long as she's hot...

huhu...

she's a part-time singer for RTM.....

n she has a great voice too...

*suara sbjik mcm dato' siti*

korg ssh nk caye klu x dgr sndri die nyanyi...

die dh comel laa skang....

*m i in love again??**syoh3**menghalau perasaan*

18.9.10

tlg parents apik topik buat open house....

bnyk plak hot chicks merangkap ex-student dtg open house diorg ni...

*apsal aku asyik terserempak ngan hot chicks je mggu ni??*

basuh pinggan, cawan, top up mknn, ais..buat air...

*sengal2 satu badan aku*

19.9.10

awal pg lbih kurang 2-3 pg kluar lg ngan appik topik ngan foz...

lepak2...

ttbe ade bunyi KKKUUUUUAAANNNNGG!!!!!

aku ngan foz ingt bunyi katak....

ghopenye apik topik kentut!!!!

sial btol..

hahaha.....

x bole blah laa seyh~

hahahaha......

mlm tu luahan hati dan perasaan...

ape yg masing2 rasa...

walaupun ade x puas hati, ttp bg tau juga...

pg mati sama nk jaga hati masing2...

sbb tu laa ade kami 3 org....

saling mengingati....

*mcm crite 3 idiots la plak*

Aal izz well...

hahaha....

inside everyone of us have a lil bit of Raju Rastogi, Farhan Qureshi, n Ranchodas Shamaldas Chancad@chote@Phunsukh Wangdu...

hahaha....

itulaaa yg melengkapkan kami.....

tgh hari balik ke nilai....

*suddenly i feel that this is my longest post*

hahahaha....

nevermind....

asalkan ade bnde nk diceritakan...

*ttbe plak post kali ni mcm boring n lame*

-.-''

that's all folks...

~Selamat Hari Raya...~

~finally~

don't get confused with the tittle...

sometimes people assumed to early before they know the whole story...

on this post i'll go with one story to another so that all of u won't mix up...

first story ~ 8.9.10..

it's a  cool date, isn't it? 

8.9.10...

in a correct manner...

and guess what??

it falls on wednesday...

*apsal rabu lg??*

maybe some planned to confess out their feelings towards their loved ones on this date...

maybe some wanted to get married...

*ade ke org kawen ari bekerja??*

but for me...

it's officially and approximately a month i'm running solo...

wednesday is such a special day...

we can watch movies for only RM6...

a double scoop BR will only cost u a single scoop...

it's stated in the middle of the week...*waktu berkeja*

I WAS BORN ON THAT DAY...

all above is about the best thing that is happening on wednesday...

but on wednesday too...

she said goodbye...

i almost commit suicide...

*time ni tgh bebal tp Alhamdulillah otak maseh mampu berfikir*

*thank Allah nothing happened*

the 1st ramadhan for this year...

and on that particular date it's clearly stated that i've learned in a month...

too much until it's hard for me to write it down...

i'll make a conclusion at the end of this post..

next ~ 9.9.10...

nothing special happened on this date...

it's just that i arrived safely at my hometown...

on that night i went into the forest with my cousins to search for bamboos...

it's for our 'lemang' for raya...

but actually we our intention is to find a big bamboo so that we can create a canon..

huhuhu...

we also went searching for some banana shoot..

people claim that the banana shoot from the forest is have nicer fragrance for 'lemang' compared to the ordinary one..

then ~ 10.9.10...

the date is quite nice...

because it's raya eid...

i went to the cemetery with my grandma early in the morning..

i was so impressed by her love for her late husband..

*which is my late grandpa*

suddenly my eyes were wet..

*she crossed my mind*

bole plak kt kubur tu aku teringat pd yg tersayang...

before this i thought that this eid would be very different from the past years...

i thought that i would celebrate this eid with someone who is absolutely very special in my life...

but it seems that this eid is just the same as the past..

*sigh*

right now i'm just counting my days..

keep counting until the day i'll leave this place..

*leaving for good is such not a bad idea*

at that new place with the new environment...

i'll try to change my life upside down...

the scratch will still be there...

if she ever face back, i'll always be there...

to conclude...

dear me n friends..

life is to short to wake up every morning with regrets...

so, love the people who treat you right..

forget about the ones who don't..

and believe that everything happens for a reason..

if you ever get a chance, take it..

if it gonne change your life, let it...

nobody said it will be easy...

it's just that...

it's worth it...

that's all...

~to all of u~

*SELAMAT HARI RAYA ~ MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN*

~believe me~

3 weeks has past...

slowly the pains fading away...

but she's still in my heart...

n i'm thinking of posting one of my notes for her...

so, here it is...

~believe me~

you are my pulse..

you are my blood that runs in my veins..

you are my tears that flows from my eyes..

you are the wrinkles that forms when i laugh or smile..

you are my backbone that supports me..

and ,

i wish you will stay that way..

you create the smiles on my face..

you make me shed my tears when you're sad..

you make me bleed when you said goodbye..

you make my heart beats faster when i hear your voice..

but ,

if you were gone and you don't miss me..

that's the sign that i should go..

if eternity is plenty then it's still not sufficient..

when the time comes, you'll fly away..

therefore ,

promise me that you'll fly back to my arms..

promise me when you are ready..

you know that i'll always be here..

even if my body is gone..

the memories is still there..

my heart is still yours..

even if it stops beating..

so ,

i'm not a good person but i'm loyal..

i'm a cheater but i can't cheat myself..

i DO love you..i DO need you and i DO crave for you..

all that i'm saying is , i may not be perfect but YOU make me perfect and whole..

no other person can do that..

believe me~

*have nothing to write*

p/s: Selamat Hari Raya dan Maaf Zahir Batin~

...two weeks of loneliness...

it's has been two weeks she left me...

oh man! 

why i can't forget about her?

feels like shit man...

(masuk bab blaja sket)

it seems that a few couple of days i really applying my studies in my life...

have been posting quotes at fb...

hahaha...

*mengalahkan Shakespeare je aku nih* :D:D:D

and everyone love it...(great!!)

so, whose behind all this?

i admit that she's the one who triggers me...

a man is really lucky if he's the first love of a woman,  but a woman is luckier if she's the last love of a man...

*it seems that i'm not a lucky guy*

loving someone that doesn't love you is like reaching for a star..you know you'll never reach it but you just got to keep trying...

*i'm trying hard right now*

*or am i not trying hard enough?*

she's happy living with her life right now...

i need to happy be as well...

unfortunately it seems hard for me to produce a sweet and nice smile...

yes, i am smiling..

but inside i'm dying..

i'm just faking a smile..

before i met her, i never knew how it is like to look at someone and smile for no reason...

everytime i looked into her eyes, i suddenly smiled...

everytime i received texts from her, my heart is full with joy...

everynight we talk through the phone, it feels like the whole world is ours...

but now...

everytime i look into her pictures, i suddenly crying...

everytime i receive a text, i always hoping it is from her.. 
*cme tinggal harapan*

everynight is empty for me now...

~my world is empty~

there's no other girl that can do those things to me...

eventhough i have many  friends among girls, she'd the only girl that can fill my heart with love...

she's the only girl that capable of doing that...

ah man!!!

~i'm into jiwang mode la plak~

*cut it out raouf*

if you have it (love), you don't need anything else but if u don't have it, it doesn't matter much what else you have..

*i've lost everything*

but...

i'll keep waiting...

and waiting...

a very small degree of hope is sufficient to cause the birth of love...

that's all for today's entry...
*mlm ni aku banyak merepek*

~who should be blame???~

L . O . V . E :

  Who should be blame if a leaf is fell down from a tree??? 

is it the wind who blew it down??? 

or the tree that let it go??? 

or maybe the leaf that tired of holding on???

my answer is.....






NO ONE!!!

it's already more than a week she left me...

looks like i'm getting back my usual life as a single person...

~nevamind~

hahaha...

i can smile back now...

it's not that i'm forgetting her or whatever...

she'll always b in my heart...

it's just that there's no point if she's happy with her life and i'm not...

*btol x??

hahaha...(a fake laugh)

even though i'm showing a fake laugh and smile, i still need to do it...

it's a starting point to be happier...

~that's all for today's entry~

~building a bridge to get over n cross the river of tears~

they say past is the past we need to move on to see the future..
but how can we move on when our past is the only thing we want in the future....

one of my friends say this to me:

"don't u realize that sometimes the thing that u want in past is not actually the thing u want for future???"

yeah man~

i didn't realize it until u said that to me..

 

 

he also added that...

...sometimes the search is all we have to keep us going...

 

can i search my heart that lost in the path of love??

but this is something that hit back in my face...

he said:

‎"I'm sorry" is a statement. "I won't do it again" is a promise. "How do I make it up to you?" is a responsibility.

 

 

sometimes i do feel that am i the best person for her???

n the answer is no~

i knew that on the first day of Ramadan~

after i broke my fast that day, my two eyes are red, my feeling are blue..

i can’t sleep in bed cause i miss her..

but if she doesn’t miss me, than something is wrong...

cause my heart is sweet, that’s where she belong..

 

i kept thinking n thinking until i realize there is a difference in what we long for, what we settle for, and who we are meant for..

 

rite now i'm building a bridge to get over n
cross the river of tears~

 

but to build a bridge is really tough n it doesn't
need an individual strength..i need everyone's strength to help me to build it n cross the stream..

 

something's better is waiting for me
at the other side of this river of tears~

 

need somebody to lean on until they need somebody else to lean on.. :)

if u forget about me

~for that one special girl from sabah~

I want you to know one thing.....

You know how this is:

if I look,

at the crystal moon,

at the red branch,

of the slow autumn at my window,

if I touch,

near the fire,

the impalpable ash,

or the wrinkled body of the log,

everything carries me to you,

as if everything that exists,

aromas, light, metals,

were little boats that sail,

toward those isles of yours that wait for me.....

Well, now,

if little by little you stop loving me

I shall stop loving you little by little.....

If suddenly you forget me

do not look for me,

for I shall already have forgotten you.....

If you think it long and mad,

the wind of banners,

that passes through my life,

and you decide,

to leave me at the shore,

of the heart where I have roots,

remember,

that on that day,

at that hour,

I shall lift my arms,

and my roots will set off,

to seek another land......

But,

if each day,

each hour,

you feel that you are destined for me,

with implacable sweetness,

if each day a flower,

climbs up to your lips to seek me,

ah my love, ah my own,

in me all that fire is repeated,

in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,

my love feeds on your love,

beloved and as long as you live it will be in your arms,

without leaving mine.....

~the 1st day of Ramadhan will be in my memory forever~

Bismillah~ with the name of Allah i start this blog~

everyone who started to write a post may tell us a sweet story, such as "i have a blog now!!!", "please follow me!!!"  but for me it's the other way round..

the 1st Ramadhan will be in my memory..

it's because i juz broke up with my gf..

~standing under the rain..it feels good but you know it will soon make you sick~

she's such a great person..

we haven't complain about each other since we declared..

but life is unpredictable n so as people..

i'm juz not good enough to replace the memory about her ex with our sweet moments together..

she kept remembering him..

staying under his shadows..

~i'm not gud enough~

i stood under the rain for hours this evening..

now i know how it feels like when staying with someone you really love even if you know you two can't be together for a lot of reasons..

it is like standing under the rain..it feels good but you know it will soon make you sick..

sometimes i really do doubted some tips about love..

for example, 

 "A girl's ex-crush will always be in her memory, but the guy she

loves now stays in her heart."

it didn't happened to me i guess..

31 interesting tips about girls..it is interesting..naa~ juz some tips that can go either way..

so, 

if u guys wanna come out wit some tips,

please, please, n please 

provide some true facts or researches that can support ur tips..

to my dear ex-gf,

 u r freely to go..go n find someone that is good enough for u..

not like me~

n perhaps that guy can help u to forget ur ex..~

i'll always pray for u..~

n please remember ur promises to me..~

~please keep ur promises~

that's all for my 1st entry~ 

Assalamualaikum~